BENIGN { ONE WORD, SO SIMPLE, SOOOO HAPPY } That one word says it all. My results say "no malignancy found 100% benign growth" I was told by my local doctor when I had my stitches out. Haven't spoken to my surgeon yet and don't see him for 2 weeks but don't care. I'm sooooo happy, sooooo relieved and really going to enjoy life more now. Funny how a scare does that to you. My doctor thinks they will just leave the cyst now as they have drained it so I could keep my ovary and hopefully it won't come back. Benign! Wow as I said before how lucky am I. I didn't tell you but I was wheeled into the theatre at 9.10 in the morning thinking at least I will be done quick and don't have to sit around.Well they put in in the room just outside the theatre and we waited. And waited and each nurse that waited with me said I don't know what the hold up is. Won't be long I told myself. HMM At 11.15 the next patient gets wheeled in next to me. We'd been chatting earlier while we got signed in.Geez you look great she said. "I haven't been in yet I said" Well she nearly died. I finally went in at 11.50 with lots of time to look at that white painted wall, trying not to be cold sitting there looking glorious with with leg warmers wrapped around each leg pumping up and down to keep the circulation going. I have never done so much thinking by myself those few hours . I told myself how I was really going to enjoy things more, especially my boys and take more time for myself. And that's what I'm going to do. I feel fantastic today and life is great. Hope your day is as good as mine (smiles)

OHH HOW I'VE MISSED YOU SO {make that ouch} Yes I am still here. For days now I've been longing to get on here and read what you've all been up to. Can't believe how much I missed you all. The last two days that was my mission but I just couldn't get up, so sore, so VERY sore. Well they couldn't take the growth without taking the whole ovary as it was to complicated. So I've been told while I was high as a kite on morphine, falling asleep then asking another question. Apparently they've taken a biopsy of it which will take about 14 days for results. I have to see the surgeon again in a month to see what happens next. I'm so hopping it's nothing and it can be left inside the ovary without bother. Just don't want to have to go through this again and I know my doctor definitely didn't want to take my ovary out if he didn't have to, being that I only have one. For all of you who've had stomach surgery you know what I'm talking about when I say I feel 9 months prego. My tummy is so blow up with all that gas so they can look at what they need to. Bother them!! Oh the pain of it all!!!! Anyway thank you so much for all you comments left. They really do brighten up a day, even on a good one. The boys have been great this past week. No fights or wrestles or anything. I've come to the conclusion that it's because I'm sitting around just being with them instead of rushing through the next job we have to tackle. It has been nice to sit back and have longer than usual to chat with each of them. Chayse keeps comming over and massaging my hair, Brodie is very concerned about my dressings etc telling me to call him when they need changing, Logan likes to snuggle with me getting his pillow and blanket out to keep me company and Parker is Parker always by my side or right behind. He's been very entertaining dancing for me as you'll see below. My mum has been a god sent being here all week to pick the boys up from school etc and just keep me company and that wonderful hubby of mine runs on energizer batteries never getting tired. He leaves at 5.30 in the morning then comes in at 7.15 to get the kids up and ready for school before going back to his busy day at 9. So lucky am I... Wonderful parents, wonderful friends (who send THE most beautiful flowers), wonderful boys and wonderful hubby (who right now has all the boys at Giggle and Bounce Playcentre so I have time to rest)............... WHO can rest when there's blogging to catch up on though!!!!!!!!!!! Love to all, hope this finds you and yours all well and that you are all having a chilaxing day. (relaxing and chilling out)

THE BUTTERFLIES ARE A FLOATIN'...

You know that awful feeling you get when you know something is comming up and you try to put it out of your mind. I've been like that for several weeks now but the date is nearing and so are those damn butterflies of nerves.

Aug. 26th, this time in one week I will be on the operating table. Just the thought of another op annoys me. I have a 4cm growth in my left ovary. Funny I should be classing it as left or right because I don't have a right one. I had to have that one removed many years ago with a cyst the size of a small orange.

I've since had my left ovary anchored down as it kept twisting around causing me great pain. It was hoped that when they stitched it on either side it would be fine. I'm told this is common after years of IVF but question it as my other cyst was before we started with all that. Anyway this 4cm growth isn't just fluid filled it has a tissue of some type in it so must be investigated further. They will try to disect it from the ovary and remove it first but if not possible the whole ovary will be taken. I feel far to young to have to start hormone replacements but will have no choice if it comes to that. Perhaps it's for the best with the trouble these ovaries give me. Between me and the boys we've seen our fair share of operating theaters so this had better be the end of it.

I guess the nerves are just getting to me today hoping the tissue is nothing bad. Feeling rather run down with a cold and just need to get on top of it all so the op can go ahead. Another early night would be good if only I could sleep!!

10 Things (about me)

1. My husband was my partner for my deb ball when we were both 16. We're now 35.
2. We actually have a photo of us at kindergarten. He is standing directly behind me. We went to the same primary school but different secondary schools. We only met up when my family shifted to the same street as him and shared a 2 hour trip home from uni. on weekends.
3. I am secretly jealous of my girlfriends that have a daughter to share their lives with.
4. I am so scared of bringing up four boys once they get into pubs and cars etc. I dread it. I also secretly hope they bring gorgoeus daughter-in laws to our family.
5. My boys and I are extemely close with our cuddles and "I love you bigger than the world" 's. It goes a bit overboard sometimes and I wonder whether I'm making them too much of a Mummys boy with all the affection.
6. I once "pinched" a pregnancy test for a girl I was working with in the pharmacy as she was so fearful she was pregnant. I went and opened a preg, test kit and she snuck to the toilet to do it. She wasn't pregnant and we didn't pay for it. SCANDAL........
7. My best friend and I once took a dare from our boyfriends in the dark of the night. We went skinny dipping in the river. It was pitch black but we didn't count on the local train going past once we had stripped off. As you would imagine the guys nicked off with our clothes. ( we were stupid, young and 18)
8. That same best friend of mine went on to marry my husbands best mate and now they have 4 sons like us, same age as ours and both of our 4 th boys have a hand deformity ( both on the right hand). See we were bought together for a reason.
9. I eat too much , could live on pasta and chocolate and keep thinking that I need to change my lifestyle more. This is the year !!!!!
10. Now that I have only sons I treasure my friendships with my girlfriends ever so much more than I used to.